Making a decision to go ahead and forgive is hard. Even when I try to “will” myself to forgive by saying over and over, I will forgive,” I have a hard time doing it. What can I do when I do not feel like forgiving so that I can make that important decision to go ahead?
To forgive is a difficult task and so we sympathize with you. If you are having a hard time forgiving a particular person, try to forgive someone else first, someone who is less challenging because the injustice might not have been as severe. As you learn the path of forgiveness and get better with practice, then turn your attention to the one who has hurt you so deeply that it is hard to start the process. This kind of practice may help you work up to forgiving this one person who is posing such a challenge to you.