Ask Dr. Forgiveness
Is anger really all that bad to have? I find that it energizes me.
We need to distinguish between healthy anger the kind, as you say, that energizes you, and excessive or toxic anger that lasts too long and is too deep. If your anger is not bringing you down, and if it energizes you, then you are right. The anger is not bad, especially if it does not prohibit you from considering forgiveness.
If I commit to do no harm to the other person who hurt me, but if I deliberately harbor anger inside, thus probably hurting myself, is this true forgiveness?
It is not a completed forgiveness, but you likely are in the process of forgiving. You need to realize that as you forgive, you may have some anger left over. Even if you deliberately are harboring anger, and if you have decided to do no harm, then you are in an early phase of forgiving, probably the Decision Phase.
Can you have the intent to do no harm toward another and yet still be very angry with that person?
Yes, a commitment to do no harm is an act of the will. Anger is an emotion. We can control the will (what we decide to think and what we will do behaviorally) more than we can control our emotions. Thus, as we conform our will to do no harm, we still might be angry.
What does it mean to “do no harm” to another?
This has a very wide meaning. In its deepest meaning, “do no harm” means to make a commitment (and to follow through on this) not to seek actual revenge. There is a commitment to avoid physical harm. On a lighter level, it can mean deliberately deciding not to talk negatively toward or about the one who hurt you.
When you commit to forgiving others, does it also include a commitment to be gentle with oneself at the same time?
Yes, as you forgive others, you offer to yourself what you offer to them. Are you offering patience to others? Then be patient with yourself. Are you trying to be compassionate toward others, then be compassionate toward yourself as a wounded person in need of some time and nurturance to heal emotionally.