Tagged: “Forgiving”
How do I overcome a sense of self-loathing? I do not like myself for my past behaviors.
I would recommend that you begin to practice self-forgiveness, which should reduce that sense of self-condemnation or self-loathing. I actually have an essay at the Psychology Today website with a title that includes those exact words, self-loathing. The essay gives you advice on beginning the self-forgiveness process. Here is a link to that essay:
The Cure to Self-Loathing? Self-Forgiveness
I have forgiven someone, but I still feel like a victim. I want to grow beyond this view of myself as a victim. What is the next view of myself that you see as usually happening for people?
To see yourself as a victim means that you know you have been wronged. As you are seeing, if you keep this as your identity, then you are seeing yourself in a one-down position in that someone is keeping you down, keeping you under that person’s power. The next step is to see that you are a survivor. You have survived the attempt by others to keep you in a one-down position. The step after that is to see yourself not only as a survivor but also as a thriver. In other words, in your surviving the injustices, you have grown in your humanity, and you are now even better than before. I wish you the best in this journey of growth.
Please tell me why it is so important to forgive.
You are given the wonderful opportunity to get rid of bitterness and put love in its place for the one who hurt you and then, if you so choose, more widely for others, as you are freed to love more deeply and more broadly.
You talk of release from emotional prison as a person forgives. Is this the hardest step in the forgiveness process, to be released from that emotional prison of pain and suffering, or do you find that other steps in the forgiveness process are harder?
The answer, of course, will vary from person to person, but we have found that the initial decision to go ahead and forgive can be the hardest part of the forgiveness process because it is taking a step into the unknown (if the person never has tried to forgive in any deep way before). Also, if a person confuses forgiving with reconciling or excusing the behavior, the decision to forgive becomes very difficult because the person is misunderstanding what forgiveness is, seeing it as a weakness. Once the true definition of forgiveness is clarified, people usually are ready to move forward with the forgiveness process.
How can a person be assured that upon forgiving, he or she will no longer experience any more negative emotions such as anger?
I think you are expecting too much from the forgiveness process. As imperfect people, we do experience some left-over anger or sadness and this can rise and fall depending on circumstances (such as a new incident that reminds you of the previous injustice). Therefore, I would encourage you to lower your standards for having some negative affect. As long as the negative emotions are not controlling you, but instead you are in control of those emotions, I think you are doing well.
