Tagged: “Anger”

Although I value and try to forgive and mean well to those who harm me, I feel like that alone does not fix my wrecked inner world (lost trust, cynicism, depression). I can try my best to mean well, but that does not mean anyone else will. Does this mean I need more than forgiveness to heal?

You show insight in saying that forgiveness alone will not heal all of the lost trust, cynicism, and even psychological depression. This is the case because forgiveness does not necessarily alter the quality of your relationships.  Forgiveness makes possible a change in relationships because you are offering the hand of peace, offering a second chance to those who acted unfairly.  Yet, some people will continue to act badly toward us.  So, we may have an unsatisfying relationship that damages trust toward that person or increases cynicism toward that person. This is a problem of a failure to reconcile and if this is the case for you, then you might ask the person to correct the unfairness.  The person may not comply.  In such a case, please note that in your forgiving, you have done the best that you can.  Also, please keep in mind that you now, in forgiving, have a way of reducing excessive anger toward particular people which can be a protection in future relationships.  In other words, you need not generalize the mistrust to all people.  Some may accept your kindness and even if they do not, you can be free of toxic anger even if disappointment or sadness or even cynicism toward a particular person remains. 

I am ambivalent about “giving a gift” to the one who offended me.  I do not think he will accept it.  This likely will make me angry all over again.  What do you suggest?

A complete sense of forgiving, or the essence of what forgiving is, includes this giving of a gift to the one who hurt you.  Yet, you do not have to reach the deepest sense of forgiving to be practicing this moral virtue.  If you are not ready to give a gift and if you have reduced your resentment and commit to do no harm to the one who hurt you, then you are forgiving at this point.

My friend thinks that by my forgiving her then all is supposedly well as if the injuries never even happened.  How do I explain that my forgiving does not automatically alter the relationship to something great (when at this point, it is not)?

Your friend is confusing your forgiving with reconciliation.  To reconcile means that both of you come together again in mutual trust.  It seems that you are not quite ready to fully trust her at this point.  Yes, forgiving is an important step toward reconciliation, but she now will have to do her part to avoid injuring you as she has done in the past.

I sometimes lose my temper with my partner.  Lately when I ask for forgiveness, he is unwilling to grant it.  I have been patient, giving him time to forgive, and then I ask again with no effect. This leaves me with both shame and guilt.  What do you recommend to me so that I can be freed from the shame and guilt?

Have you been working on your temper so that it does not get in the way of the relationship?  Seeking forgiveness and changing behavior go together.  If you are changing that behavior and because you have asked for forgiveness and have been patient, I think you can go in peace knowing that you have done your best for now.  Give your partner time for him to work through his own forgiving.